22 02 2008

Last night I was sitting in the lounge with my family. They were watching TV and I was using our laptop, idly thinking about what I might write for this post. I started writing but either I was distracted by the TV, or the family, or just couldn’t seem to think what to write about.

But then I noticed a book my wife is reading “What Should I DO With My Life” by Po Bronson. It was just there on the arm of the chair. Intrigued I picked it up, and read a page or two. It seemed quite interesting but reading someone elses words were not what I wanted, right then.

And then my wife started up a conversation with our son about the amount of time he’s not spending revising for exams. She asked him what was his purpose in sitting the exams. His answer was so he could go to university. We kept him digging to find a deeper purpose for a while.

And I remember how that day I had spent a fair bit of time, at my work desk, looking at what goals I could set myself to achieve my annual bonus. I had brainstormed several ideas before settling on three which I think will be a good fit for my purpose this year.

It’s odd how suddenly my life is filled with questions about purpose. Is this confluence of events about purpose just a coincidence or is there a deeper guiding force behind them, bringing the subject to my attention? Is life telling me something? Like, “Phill Jenkins, you should look at your purpose in life. What are you doing? Where are you going?”.

Or maybe it isn’t odd. Maybe life (God, Allah, call it what you want) does not have a purpose, fate, destiny for me. But rather it is I that gives a purpose to my life. Perhaps having a purpose is fundamental to what it is to be a human. And I’m just waking up to that.


First Post

21 02 2008

My name is Phill Jenkins and this blog is about me; my journey; my life. A diary, a stream of consciousness, an Artists Way daily page (or almost daily). It’s an exploration of what it is to be … me.

It doesn’t really matter if no-one else ever reads it.

Last night I was on team for the first session of a course, The Power Of Purpose, taught by a local More To Life‘mentor’. It’s a course about finding and living your life’s purpose. I’ve taught it myself, several times before, but since moving to Manchester I thought it would be a good idea to refresh my understanding of the course material by being on the support team.

Just in case someone does read this, I stress here that this blog is not in any way an official More To Life blog. I do not intend to ‘sell’ More To Life, or it’s courses, or ‘evangelise’ about the More To Life programme. The opinions expressed herein are my own.

The mentor has asked that the team simply participate in the course material wherever possible. It’s a small course and so there’s not much support required and I’m able to do almost all the exercises and be very much ‘in’ the course.

And it’s got me thinking. Thinking about what I want from life; what I want to create; what I want to do and be. Thinking about what my purpose in life is. And this train of thought crept in to the title of this blog.

I see these questions as being of fundamental importance, and not just for me. Many people are struggling to understand their purpose on this planet. To know, not just theoretically, but in their heart, why they are here and what they can do and be to fulfill their purpose in life.

I am not a religious person. I don’t go to church nor believe in the Christian God. However, I think that seeking the answers to these questions is a spiritual quest. A journey, exploring what it is to be a human being.